March 19, 2009
Tonight I went to the place where you and me used to be
the warm feeling was gone, tonight the cold air pierced my skin
I used to feel safe with your voice surrounding me in every direction, tonight every sound made a threat
the lights that twinkled so beautifully against the night sky, were dim across a red sky tonight
the butterflies I felt inside when I looked at you were raging moths tonight
the wide eyes that used to look up and admire your every feature, looked down loathing everything in sight tonight
your reflection was missing next to mine tonight
tonight your warm sweet touch was absent
the sound of your heartbeat was replaced by the faint humming of street lights and my empty footsteps tonight
then I never wanted to leave, tonight I felt trapped
minutes used to feel like seconds, tonight those same minutes translated into hours
the comfort I used to feel was gone, never had I felt more uncomfort than tonight
this night, tonight is how it will be from now on
i searched for you tonight but you were nowhere to be found
just me looking for a piece, just a little of what used to be
but within my search i found something tonight, i found that there is no more you and me
and i will never find that place
because along with everything that used to be, that place disappeared tonight
Posted on 03/19/2009 11:22 PM Comments (0)
March 13, 2009
Here's to all those girls who used to be his number one. The ones who waited all night for him to call, only to check the caller ID the next morning and be disappointed. The ones who made it through that bitter break up, dried your own tears, and moved on with your life, only to have him walk back in it months later like nothing ever happened. Those of you who cried on the first day you talked again because you knew exactly where this phone call was going. The ones who listened to him say, I only want to be your friend, one day, and the next, listened to him say how much he loves and misses you. We deserve something, and this is our tribute.
Here's to the ones that took him back, hoping that maybe this time, he was different, hoping that maybe people really do change. We listened to our friends tell us that we were stupid for even thinking about giving him another chance, caught shit from our parents, and even snuck around to see him for a while. We went through the great stage with no fights all over again. We started this out thinking it would be just friends, and ended up falling in love with him again. We wanted nothing more in the world than to hear him tell us he loved us too, that even though things were bad in the past, they would be different this time. And when we finally heard it, it was like we were dreaming. This is for us.
Here's to the ones who believed what he said, sat around all over again waiting for a phone call that might come in a few hours, or a few days. Here's for the tears cried and dried all over again. We wanted so desperately to believe that he was really busy, he couldn't possibly call us at that moment, or even that he fell asleep early. We trained ourselves to believe the lies because we wanted to believe we had found the one for us. We learned to SETTLE for someone who didn't treat us the way we should be treated.
Here's for the ones who did their hair and make up and put on their prettiest earrings, only to hear him say that he couldn't see us today. The ones who never believed it when people told us there might be someone else. We just couldn't believe that he could do this to us again. This is for those great girls, who loved him more than words can say, and took him back no matter what happened last time because they couldn't bear to look back on their lives one day and wonder "what if".
This is for the ones that held on to something that was never there to begin with. This is for us girls, who somehow managed to get him to forget about her, and get him to tell us that he was in love with us again, only to have him tell us three weeks later that "things were going too fast, he needs time."
Here's to the girls who couldn't cry to their friends because of how stupid they felt. The ones who held it all in when things came crumbling to pieces again. This is for the ones who couldn't bear to even tell their mom what was going on, for fear of an "I told you so." The ones that could just TELL that they had made a mistake ever allowing him into their hearts, their beds, and their dreams again.
We knew that we deserved better the entire time, that we deserved a guy who would call when he said he was going to, one that would come see us whenever he got the chance, one that would really care about us. We just wanted the one that we loved like that.
Here's for the ones that FINALLY realized that he never gave a shit about them. Here's for the time that he broke your heart again. This is for those days spent trying to hold back the tears, and the tears that turned into anger, then disappointment. Here's for us girls who finally realized that we deserve better. This is for those confusing days, when you miss him, and want nothing more than to hear his voice, or feel his arms around your waist. Stay strong, and remember that relationships are like broken glass, sometimes it's better to leave it alone rather than try to put the pieces back together and get hurt. Remember the times you cried, and how long it took you to even be able to look at another guy like that.
When "your song" comes on the radio, turn the station. When the day comes that he realizes what a mistake he made and tries calling, turn your phone off. When he tries coming to your house, don't answer the door. Think of the broken promises, and the lies, the manipulation and the tears, the wasted moments and staying up all night wondering where the HELL he was. Think of how your heart used to jump when your phone would vibrate in the middle of the night, and how it fell to your stomach when you saw it wasn't him, and realized that once again, he hadn't called when he said he was going to.
One day, you'll find a guy who's worth all the tears, but he won't make you cry. You may think that you'll never care about someone like you did that guy that you always ran back to, but you will. It's gonna hurt like hell, and it's going to need time to heal, but the point is, it will heal.
Posted on 03/13/2009 11:05 AM Comments (2)
January 4, 2009
welcome year 2009
i greet you with open arms :]
out with the old and in with the new is what they say, but 08 left alot of good, more than other years
i can actually say that i learned and changed alot this year
i looked at myself on new years eve and i hardly recognized myself
which isnt as bas as it sounds
this year i am: stronger, more experienced and independent
i have been through hell and back this past year
a year ago i was still holding on to things that werent there anymore
letting go was the best thing i did last year
i let go of the ties, the memories, and my doubt
i doubted if i could move on; if things would ever go back to "normal"
kudos life, you proved me wrong, things are better than i could have ever imagined at the time
i learned so many new things this year, its amazing
and i made so many new friends in the process, it made it all that more fun and exciting
i dont ever remember feeling so alive
simply living was the best thing i did this year
i didnt get a new car
i didnt go on an amazing vacation
i didnt win the lottery
i didnt get a new phone
i didnt obtain fame and/or fortune
i lived every day, day by day
i enjoyed and made the most out of every day
i savored the moments that make this life worth living
and i appreicated everyone who was a part of those moments
i saw things that i would have usually overlooked
i listened and not just heard
i took chances and let change in
change is the best thing that happened to me
really there is nothing more that i could have asked for in 08
it definitely had its ups and down
and i wouldnt change one bit of it
everything i've been through has shaped who i am
and i like who im becoming
i cant wait to see who i become
i cant wait to keep doing this crazy wonderful thing we call life
bring it on 2009; im ready to go
Posted on 01/04/2009 1:33 AM Comments (0)
October 17, 2008
Wipe That Smile Off Your Fucking Face
[chapter eighteen]
“I know I keep saying this Sue, but im so glad you’re here, this thing with Pete and then Gabe and--” she let out a loud but relieved sigh “im just glad its all over with”
“mhm” Sue replied as she took a sip of her green tea
“mhm? that’s all you’re gonna say?”
“well, what about Gabe? I mean Pete is who the hell knows where, but Gabe…im thinking you’re gonna keep running into him”
“I fixed things with Gabe”
“then why did he still want to talk to you a couple nights ago?”
“I don’t know…hes fucking weird”
Sue quickly rolled her eyes at Jade’s stubbornness
“dude I don’t know what to do anymore”
“about Sue?”
“yeah I keep asking her to come home and she says that shes not ready yet, im freaking losing it Jon”
Jon slowly shook his head “hows Gabe holding up?”
“dude I havent talked to him in a couple of days”
“we should drop by, just to see how hes doing”
“fuck! now I know how Gabe feels, fuck this…”
“okay then, you tell me, what the hell do I say to Gabe?”
“agh! jeez Jade, you’re so difficult sometimes” she inhaled and exhaled deeply “you know that you’re attracted to him, and he…well Gabe would pretty much do anything for you, you know that right?”
Jade nodded “and that scares me”
“what?”
“you don’t get it”
“okay so help me understand”
“I think…its just the fact that” she hesitated “ive never had to deal with this; with a guy like Gabe, I don’t think ive---” she was cut off by Sue’s phone
“ugh, hold on its Brendon” she got up from where they sat and took the call in the living room. Jade thought it was pretty hypocritical of her to wonder why she wasn’t with Gabe when she was doing the same with Brendon. she walked to her room and dialed a number that might be able to help
“Jon tell me what to do”
“oh hey Jade, whats going on?”
“I know it isn’t your call but Gabe’s your friend, is he worth it?”
deep inside Jon wanted to say no, but he knew that if Gabe ever found out he would be crushed “well like you said its not my call, but in all honesty Gabe’s a good guy”
“yeah?” for the first time she felt like she was okay with the situation, like she wasn’t crazy for even considering it.
“yeah” he smiled over the phone
“okay, well thanks Jon, you’re always there when I need you, you’re a great friend”
“no problem”
“hey Gabe” Jon and Brendon stood at his door
“oh hey come in guys” he slouched in front of the door as he let them in
“dude you gotta get out” Jon said
“fuck it” he replied with such conviction in his voice that it made Brendon and Jon hesitate to bring up what they came here to talk to Gabe about
“look Gabe I know you probably don’t wanna talk about it, but im gonna go see Sue and we think that you should come so you can see Jade”
Gabe took his hands and slid them over his face and grasped his hair and said “you know what Brendon, id really like to, but fuck, seriously I just cant find it in me anymore, im done trying”
“well if you change your mind, me and Brendon are leaving tomorrow after I get out of work, you know where to find us”
“im done”
“hey don’t you wanna see Brendon?”
“well I was thinking about it, and I decided that im going back home next week”
“really?”
“yeah, I miss Brendon, I want to work this out, and im sure he does too, why are you asking me now?”
“I was hoping you said ‘yes’ so I could use you as an excuse”
Posted on 10/17/2008 3:53 PM Comments (0)
August 21, 2008
Wipe That Smile Off Your Fucking Face
[chapter seventeen]
“Jade?”
“what?”
“whats wrong? why are you so quiet?”
“im sorry Sue, my mind is still buzzing around the whole situation”
Sue stayed quiet long enough to think about what came out of her mouth next “do you like him?”
Jade quickly glanced at her as if she had asked her something completely absurd and she said nothing.
“I mean Gabe”
“I know who you’re talking about” she finally said “I don’t know”
“what about Pete?”
“what about him?” she asked annoyed
“that’s it?”
“yeah that’s it”
“but how can you just let Pete go like that? he was--”
“you know nothing about him!” Jade interrupted
her voice startled Sue “ok…whatever”
“you don’t even know the half of it”
they continued on the road as Jade told Sue more about her mishaps with Pete and her strange run-ins with Gabe, it had been way too long that they had talked with no interruptions except for their own
“I guessed you’d show up soon”
“just let me come in man”
“Jade left? again?”
“shut the fuck up Brendon”
Gabe slumped down on couch near Brendon “you know what man, I know that you don’t give a fuck, but theres something about that girl”
“don’t say that”
“you don’t care Brendon, this isn’t the first time we’ve talked about this, why are you like this?”
Brendon stayed quiet for a while and then finally opened his mouth “alright, you want the truth: I was just trying to stay on Pete‘s good side you know? it has nothing to do with you or Jade”
Gabe sighed loudly “whatever” he got up from the couch and went to where he knew Jon and Brendon kept what he needed more of “I wondered why you always sided with Pete, you bastard”
“can you blame me?” Brendon got up and walked over to check on Gabe
Gabe started taking shots “not really, but I think its too late for me to start kissing ass to that motherfucker”
“yeah well, im actually thinking about my band and not some stupid girl who doesn’t even give a shit”
“fuck you man, you don’t know shit”
“where the fuck did you go?” came a voice from behind
Brendon and Gabe turned around to see Jon walking towards them
“I was at your place for about thirty minutes before I decided to leave myself”
“aw fuck im sorry man” Gabe sloppily replied
“where’s Jade?”
“she fucking left again” he put his head down on the counter
“I never imagined him to be like that, he always seemed so put together around everyone”
“yeah, but he has too much going on right now, and I cant deal-- hang on” Jade picked up her phone “hello?”
“Jade, don’t pick up anymore phone calls”
“who is this?”
“its me Jon”
“whats going on?”
“Gabe is here with me and Brendon, and he’s probably gonna be calling you pretty soon”
“what? why?”
“please Jade just trust me, if Gabe calls don’t pick up”
“wait, then where are you?”
“I came to get more drinks for Gabe and Brendon”
“omg, are they both drinking?”
“uhh…no not really, mostly Gabe”
“aw shit!…alright then thanks Jon”
“no problem, take care”
Jade closed her phone and threw it onto her bed “fuck”
Sue picked up her phone that had bounced off from her bed to the ground “who was that?”
“fuck, fuck, fuck! I don’t want to deal with this now, I cant, im not ready” she fell to her knees and with her head on the floor and started bawling
Sue kneeled next to her “Jade, come on, get up”
Jade kept on sobbing and mumbling so horribly that only Sue could understand what she was saying
Sue put her arm around Jade “you don’t have to do this now, its okay”
Jade finally put her head up and wiped a few tears to make room for the others that followed
“just relax, it’ll be fine, we’ll get through this”
“hey Jon!”
“what?!” Jon called from the doorway
“hurry up with the fucking beer!”
Jon set a brown paper bag in front of Brendon and Gabe
“hey Jon let me have Jade’s house number”
“what for?”
“so I can call her”
“I already gave you her cell number”
“I know but she’s not picking up”
“ok then what makes you think she’ll pick up at her house?”
“shut the fuck up and just it to me already”
“I don’t have it” Jon innocently replied
“bullshit”
Brendon shook his head “screw you guys im gonna fucking crash”
Jon opened up a beer as he sat on the couch “seriously Gabe I don’t have it”
“alright then, fuck it” and he chugged the longneck down
“do you feel better now?”
“yeah, thanks Sue” Jade laid down on her bed “im so glad you’re here”
“me too” Sue slowly walked away as Jade dozed off, she walked into the living room where she looked at her old furniture; the furniture that her, Jade, and Jaz had picked out together. every single piece of it picked out by all three of them, all of it belonged to all three of them. but now, their condo was so empty it made Sue miss living there with Jade and Jaz, but things weren’t the same anymore, and as far as she was concerned they would never be. she walked over to the answering machine which had been blinking since she walked into the living room and she pressed play,
hey Jade, its me…Pete. I just wanted to say that im sorry about what I said to you earlier, I was just really upset, but I didn’t mean any of it, honestly. please call me, we should uhh…talk things over. I told you that I would forget you, but I cant, I havent. things will be different this time, I promise. please Jade I need you, so call me back. I miss you.
“oh please” she pressed the button that would cause Jade the least amount of pain, she knew that what she was doing was right thing, she had to make sure Jade would never hear his voice again, maybe that way she’d forget him a little sooner. she deleted the message; she deleted him out of Jade's life.
Posted on 08/21/2008 3:31 PM Comments (1)
August 14, 2008
i read your letters today and they made me smile
they made me remember what you made me forget
i liked reading your letters today
they made me feel like a kid again
i was glowing like i would back then
i wish you would write to me again
but if you dont then thats just fine
because i still have your letters
and when i read your letters they make me smile
Posted on 08/14/2008 8:32 PM Comments (0)
Despite the false death certificate and an obviously Photoshopped screen capture of MTVNews.com's main page that circulated the Web on Monday, Cobra Starship frontman Gabe Saporta is doing just fine. But he did have to take time out of his busy schedule playing the Warped Tour to issue a MySpace update under the headline "I'm Not Dead." It simply read, "Sorry to disappoint."
Saporta was very much alive and well earlier this month, when MTV News caught up with him at Pete Wentz's Lollapalooza afterparty in Chicago. He told John Norris about Cobra Starship's Warped experience, and discussed the band's upcoming plans.
"The thing is, we're on the Warped Tour now, and we've never played Warped before, and we're not like a typical Warped band, but I guess a lot of kids asked us to be there," he said. "So, we're playing the mosh set on Warped, because we want to make sure the kids get to beat the sh-- out of each other, because we know that's what they like to do.
"When you think Warped, you don't think of a band like us," Saporta continued. "We wear a lot of bright clothes, we shake our butts a lot, we're very sarcastic, we're electronic. Usually, Warped is about the mosh. But the truth is, the scene is changing a lot these days. And what unites all the bands on Warped isn't a specific musical sound, but it's more of an ethic. There are so many different types of bands on Warped, I can't tell you how surprised I am to have made friends with some of these bands that I thought were totally going to think we're pu----s. Like Story of the Year — I just thought they'd hate us. They listen to metal, they have tattoos, and we're best buds on this tour. The common thread of Warped is the ethic."
As soon as the band finishes its final Warped set on August 17 in Carson, California, Saporta told us that the group will be hopping a plane to Australia, where they'll be touring with Panic at the Disco. The singer grumbled about the fact that the band has had no rest, and that the flight Down Under would take an entire day.
"It's OK," he said. "I'll sleep when I'm dead."
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By Chris Harris, with additional reporting by John Norris
Posted on 08/14/2008 12:40 PM Comments (0)
July 31, 2008
Wipe That Smile Off Your Fucking Face
[chapter sixteen]
“hey!” Jon and Gabe both stood at the door “come in” Jon continued.
Jade awkwardly but surely made her way into the semi-familiar living room.
“sit” Gabe said taking a seat at a safe distance from her.
“uh yeah I gotta go do some stuff, I’ll be back later” Jon said as he walked out.
“so whats going on?” Gabe said
“I wanted to start off by saying im sorry” she sat closer to the end of the couch; closer to him.
“it’s okay, I--”
“im not done yet, im sorry for everything, even the drink, im sorry I jumped to conclusions, im sorry that im a hypocrite, im sorry that I’ve been nothing but unfriendly to you, even when you were the only one that was there for me that night” she took a deep breath and look up at Gabe.
“honestly, that’s all I wanted to hear”
“really?” Jade was shocked at Gabe’s reply
“well yes and no” he got closer to her “I know you better than you think”
“you’re talking about that night” she said in a more quiet tone
“Jade, you don’t know what happened that night”
“what does it matter? just the fact that I cant remember anything from that night is bad enough, that’s why I left like that, I was embarrassed”
“well if it makes you feel any better, nothing happened”
“seriously?”
“yes, we, well rather you, talked and then I said you could crash here, you slept in my bed and the only reason why I did too was because you asked me not to leave”
“oh I see, can I ask you something?”
Gabe nodded “sure”
“did I say anything that I should know about?”
“well you talked about Pete and then we talked about why im nice to you, that’s about it”
“why are you so nice to me?”
Gabe laughed, “you asked me the exact same thing last time”
“well I don’t remember what you said” she said giggling herself.
he shrugged “I don’t know”
“is that what you said last time?”
“no, last time I said that I hated seeing you all torn up about what Pete had done to you and I didn’t…” he hesitated “want you to feel how I was feeling”
Jade stared at Gabe and then something inside of her woke up, and she remembered; those exact words triggered a feeling that she shouldn’t be feeling, a feeling that was familiar, a feeling that she was afraid of. she nodded “I see, well…thank-you”
Gabe felt the awkwardness and tried to break it with “Jon should be back soon, you wanna go get something to eat when he gets here?”
just then Pete walked in, Gabe tried to react faster than Jade and got up from the couch, but she beat him to it
“Jade?”
“hi Pete”
“so you finally came to your senses”
“yeah I did” she glanced back at Gabe for assurance
“good, I came to pick up the rest of my stuff” Pete said heading for his old room “let me just put these things in my car and we can get out of here”
Jade followed Pete into his room “what?”
“yeah, im only gonna be here for a while, then we’re going back out on the road, I need time to get settled into my new apartment and then im gone”
“of course” Jade said very sarcastically
“you know how it is”
“no, Pete I don’t but I do know this: you only want someone to come home to”
“how can you say that?”
“its always been like this with you Pete”
“I’ll be here more often if you need me to”
“no! I don’t want anything from you, don’t you understand I don’t want this!”
“then what the fuck are you doing here?” he got right in her face
“I came here to talk to Gabe”
he took a step back “I knew that asshole was in on this”
“don’t talk about him like that”
“aw come on Jade you know he’s been trying to break us apart”
“you don’t need his help for that”
Pete leaned into Jade’s face “come on Jade don’t do this, you know I love you”
Jade slowly shook her head as Pete leaned in closer and closer until his lips touched hers; he kissed her just long enough to realize she wasn’t.
she backed away and looked at him from the floor up and stopped at his face “I cant do this anymore Pete, I just cant”
“but Jade I need you, I cant do this without you”
overtaken by feelings, tears flooded her eyes once again “you‘ve been doing just fine, you don’t need me, you made that choice the day you walked out without saying anything”
“we can work this out, please Jade I cant do this alone”
“that is not my problem! you’re your own problem, so keep doing what you’ve been doing and leave me out of it”
“fine, I see how it is” he walked out with his belongings
still shaken by the situation Jade followed Pete out to the living room, Pete put his things down by the door and looked back Gabe who was still sitting on the couch and then at Jade who stood in the hallway, Pete walked closer towards Gabe; he looked him in the eye and said “you couldn’t let me have it all could you? you son of a--!” he launched at him and grabbed Gabe by the throat “why couldn’t you just leave it alone?!”
Jade ran up to them and tried to separate them “stop! stop! Pete please stop!”
Gabe punched Pete in the face and he fell backwards onto the ground, they both got up and got ready to go at it again when Jade stepped in front of Gabe
“get out of the fucking way!” Pete yelled at her
“no, this is what I should have done before”
“im not gonna warn you again Jade!”
Gabe pointed at Pete “don’t talk to her like that, and get the fuck out of here”
Pete walked towards the door and looking at Jade he said “I cant believe you’re gonna let it go like this but whatever you’ll regret it later” he walked out still shouting “things could’ve been great, but now you’ll never know! you can forget about me Jade cuz I am sure as hell forgetting about you!”
“I feel horrible that me and Jade arent talking, I think im gonna go visit her”
“are you sure you wanna do that after what she said to you?”
“Brendon, I think Jade is right”
“do whatever you want”
Sue got up from where they sat and started walking up stairs “I will then” it had become such a habit it didn’t even upset her anymore, she didn’t even try to win anymore. she dialed Jade’s number and hoped that she’d pick up
“hello”
“Jade?“
“yes”
“oh im so glad you picked up, im so sorry about what I said to you”
“its okay”
“you were right, I need some time to think so I was wondering if I could come over”
“actually, I think I can pick you up”
“why would you do that?”
Jade laugh a bit “im kinda already here”
“here here?”
“im at Gabe’s”
“really?”
“uh yeah”
“oh wow…so you’ll pick me up?”
“of course, get your stuff ready and I’ll call you when I get there”
Jade looked at Gabe “that was Sue, she wants me to go pick her up”
“I thought you were gonna hang with me and Jon”
Jade looked around for a second and then back at him “I don’t think im up for it…you know after what just happened, and besides”
disappointment was clear on his face “what?” he asked
she stayed quiet
“tell me, I can take it”
“I don’t think you‘re up for it either”
he shook his head “im not the way you think I am”
she mouthed “im sorry” and walked out
“when Jade? when?”
she sat inside her car with her forehead on the steering wheel and tears running down her face im so sorry Gabe, im sorry I keep doing this to you, not now…right now im just fighting to get by
Posted on 07/31/2008 2:50 PM Comments (2)
July 23, 2008
Wipe That Smile Off Your Fucking Face
[chapter fifteen]
“Gabe I lied to you”
“what are you talking about?”
“I have Jade’s number, she actually gave it to me when she was here”
“dude I asked you for it days ago, why now?”
Jon sighed loudly “I didn’t want to be a part of this”
“I know but…”
“and I don’t want Jade to hate me either, we get along”
“you’re not into her are you?”
“no, its not like that”
“hey Sue”
“Jade! I’ve been calling you”
“I know”
“why didn’t you pick up my calls?”
“I needed some time…to myself and to think things over”
“I see”
“and I was mad at you”
“why?”
“because you sided with Pete and…”
“Jade what are you saying?”
“you don’t know them like I do”
“but Brendon said--”
Jade cut her off “thats why I hadn’t called you, you have Brendon’s input, his side of the story, I need your input!”
“that’s how I really see things Jade”
“oh really? because I don’t believe you, im sorry Sue but I don’t”
“oh yeah well call me when done doubting and criticizing your best friend” and she ended the call.
“Jade I really think you should talk to Gabe”
“it sounds crazy but I’ve kinda been thinking the same thing”
“he deserves at least an explanation”
"yeah, thanks for listening Jon, i'll talk to you later”
“Jade come on just give me another chance”
“Pete you’re not even here, how can we work things out when you’re out…there!”
“I don’t know, but Jade I love you”
“no! no you don’t, you know nothing about me just drop it Pete, forget it”
“but Jade--”
“forget it!”
“so what are you going to do?”
“im gonna go see him”
“wow, really?”
“yeah I just don’t want things to be this way”
“things have never been easy between you two”
“I know…thanks Jaz its great to hear from you”
“yeah your voicemail worried me, but I knew that I needed to call you even before that”
“you always know”
“so when are you gonna go see him?”
“tomorrow, I’ve been putting this off too long”
“yeah, let me know how its goes”
“I will, take care”
“hey Jon, its me Jade”
“oh hey, whats up?”
“I thought about what you told me the other day, and I want to talk to Gabe”
“oh good he should be around here somewhere, let me find him”
“uh…no, you see the reason why I called is to ask if you guy’d be home tomorrow”
“yeah, we will”
“I need to talk to him in person”
“see you then”
Jade ended the call and the her phone fall out of her hand and onto the ground, she fell back wards on her bed and sighed how did I get myself into this mess? how can this be happening all at once? I hate it that I cant talk to Sue like I used to and Jaz isn’t even here, im all alone and the worst part is I have no idea if that’s gonna change, especially with this thing going on with Pete and Gabe, im so confused about everything. and without warning a tear slipped out, she wiped it with the inside of index finger, looked down at it and said “I don’t even know if this is worth it”
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*its not getting any better, i know, but i just need to finish this story. dont get me wrong i still enjoy writing it but i know im not the best writer, and if you can see this, thanks for reading, it means the world to me.*
Posted on 07/23/2008 4:36 PM Comments (3)
July 3, 2008
Wipe That Smile Off Your Fucking Face
[chapter fourteen]
Pete dug his eyes into Jade for an answer, her eyes showed only guilt "what the fuck Jade?"
"dude, come on she doesn't even remember don't talk to her like that" Gabe mumbled
"what the fuck do you care?" Pete snapped back
Jon and Brendon stood behind Gabe and walked closer to him, Brendon signaled Pete to stop.
"you too, stay the fuck out!"
"calm the fuck down!" Gabe shouted at Pete
"me? you started this!" Pete walked closer towards Gabe "its all you man" Pete stood in right in front of Gabe and pointed at him
Gabe shoved him "back off bro"
"no fuck you" Pete shoved him back
Gabe swung right at Pete and landed his fist on the right side of Pete's jaw, Pete lunged at Gabe and also took aim at his face and landed a few good punches. Gabe lost his balance for a second but then managed to grab Pete by zipper of his hoodie and got ready to take another shot but was stopped by Jon and Brendon's yelling and the blood on his left shoulder that was dripping from his face. Jon walked up behind Gabe, who still held Pete up a few inches off the ground, and said "come on Gabe" he pulled his shoulders back a bit and even got some blood on his left hand.
Gabe then pushed and released his grip on Pete's hoodie; he fell to the ground coughing and gasping for air. Brendon walked up to him and gave him a hand to help him up but Pete just shook his head and said "no, I don't need your help" he got up and looked at Brendon right in the eye "I knew there was something you weren't telling me" he looked around "im fucking done with all of you" and he walked off. Brendon started to go after him but Sue grabbed his arm "seriously Brendon don't" she looked over at Jade who was still standing by her car "im gonna go talk to Jade"
"Gabe why the fuck did you just do that?" Jon finally asked
"yeah man, you know better than that" Brendon added "you know how Pete is"
"fuck him, and you know what I really don't want to talk about it"
"whatever" Brendon said
"we should go now" Jon said, Gabe nodded.
"I don't know what the hell is going on I don't know what just happened I…" Jade was clearly still frightened and confused
"what the hell does it matter Jade?" its all Gabe's fault anyways"
Jade blinked a few times and looked at her with a blank expression "I gotta go" she got in her car and drove off
"is she okay?" Brendon asked as she watched Jade car leave the parking lot
"I have no idea" Sue replied "should I go talk to her?"
"no she definitely needs some time to herself"
"but she's my best friend"
"we got our own issues to worry about besides we need to get home"
"thanks for driving me home after all that" Gabe spoke as he got out of Jon's car
"you really out did yourself this time"
"honestly I couldn't help it, I don't know what happened"
Jon nodded "we'll talk later, get some rest"
"it's been almost a week ever since the incident and Jade still wont pick up her phone" Sue said looking at Brendon
"there really isn't anything you can do"
"you always say that!"
Brendon was taken aback by her tone "I didn't mean…"
"look Brendon, I know you don't know her that well so you might not care, but I do"
"I wasn't saying that…"
"please just stop"
"so are you gonna tell me or what?" Jon impatiently asked
"yeah, I just don't know how to say it" Gabe sat across from Jon and played with the tab on the can in front of him
"Gabe!"
"okay okay, im just gonna say it but don't laugh" he pointed at Jon "there's something about her, I cant…explain it, but I just feel right when she's around"
"I hate to break it to you" Jon interrupted "but Brendon's right she treats you like shit, how did this happen?"
Gabe's tone was particular as he told Jon about what had happened "when Pete left…she was there you know and he just walked out, she was real torn up about it and we started talking, well actually she was doing most of the talking since she was kinda drunk, and…there's just more to her than what you usually see"
"but she likes Pete, not you, she almost hates you, especially after that incident" Jon made quote marks with his fingers "I don't think it made things any better"
"everybody keeps telling me that, that she doesn't like me, but you guys don't feel what I feel, you don't see it" she shook his head as he looked down "Jon, you weren't there that night but I guess you're right" he shrugged a little
"what?"
"she knows, she told me that night, its just ironic that Pete treats her like crap and she puts up with it and she knows im into her and she still treats me like crap, she knows what its' like but she does it too, she's just like him"
"Jade?"
"im really not sure why you're calling me"
"I want to apologize"
"why do you keep doing that? you're just as bad as Gabe! no actually worse, at least he's honest"
"Jade don't compare me to that fucking asshole!" he grunted "besides you have some explaining to do"
"about what?!"
"about that night"
"oh you mean the night you left me all alone" her tone was very sarcastic
his voice became less angry "I thought you were over that"
"yeah well some things are hard to forget"
he changed his tone "you don't understand" his words were as soft as his touch "you're all I think about Jade, you know I care about you"
"Pete don't…"
"you know its true Jade"
"you know what, just call me back some other time, I gotta go now"
"Jon come on! you can actually help me here"
"Gabe no, I cant"
"yeah just ask Sue, or Brendon whatever"
"why do you want it? what are you gonna say to her 'hey Jade it's me the guy you cant stand, I just wanted to say hello' I don't think so"
"I need to talk to Jade, I cant leave things the way they are"
"…oh Jaz I wish you were still here, I really need you…especially at times like this, I could call Sue but it just feels weird because of Brendon and stuff, I don't know…just honestly I miss you both so much, I don't want to worry you but just call me back as soon as you get this, I don't know what to do…"
Posted on 07/03/2008 4:32 PM Comments (3)
June 30, 2008
Wipe That Smile Off Your Fucking Face
[chapter thirteen]
“Pete’s bands gotten better” Brendon said looking at Jade and Sue. Sue nodded while Jade tried to ignore the fact that Gabe was only a few feet away; she focused on Pete. She remembered why she had fallen for him, she remembered the night she met him; there was something about him and that something was definitely there tonight.
Gabe nudged Jon’s side and said “I think im gonna go outside”
Jon pulled him back by the sleeve “what? no dude its almost over. is something wrong?”
Gabe looked up at the stage then back at Jon “uh no never mind”
Jade looked up at Pete, up at his eyes and she knew that this time he was looking back at her and thinking what she was thinking. Without taking his eyes off of Jade, he stepped up to the mic “this is gonna be our last song for tonight and I would like to dedicate it to somebody special”
everyone in the audience clapped and cheered except for those who stood around Jade; they stared at Pete and then at Jade. during that song Brendon looked over at Gabe who seemed to be rolling his eyes every other verse, when Gabe’s eyes met with Brendon’s Gabe mouthed “fuck this” Brendon shook his head and looked away.
“so are you gonna say something?” Sue asked as they walked in the parking lot
“uh yeah…wait, no…” Jade exhaled and finally said “omg! that was awesome!”
“im glad you liked it” a voice came from behind
they both spun around and they saw Pete standing holding his guitar case
“Pete!” Jade screamed and she ran towards him he dropped his guitar case and finally embraced her. Sue smiled to herself and walked back inside.
“i wasn’t sure you’d be here” he said
she rested her arms at her sides and looked down “why did you think that?”
“because” he finally brought her eyes to meet his “I know that what I did was wrong, and you have every right to be mad at me” Jade crossed her arms and smirked. “I shouldn’t have left like that, we should’ve talked first” Pete finally said.
Jade’s smirk turned into and smile and she reached out to hold Pete’s hands “we will talk next time” she leaned closer to his face and he kissed her.
“I am so tired of his shit!” Gabe said as he walked next to Jon.
Jon stopped “what the fuck are you talking about?”
Gabe rubbed the side of his face with an open palm and exhaled “Pete, I cant fucking stand him”
“dude, what the hell he’s your best friend”
Gabe just shook his head “im done” and he started walking back towards the venue.
“there’s something that I want to tell you” Jade said as Pete held her
“what is it?”
“I think its best if we go somewhere more private, I wouldn’t want anyone to overhear”
“oh I see”
Jade took Pete’s hand and they went inside her car.
“Brendon please fill me in” Jon said as they walked towards him and Sue
“what now?” Brendon asked
“I have no idea dude, im just following Gabe, he wont talk to me anymore”
Brendon and Sue both looked at each other as they watched Gabe walk towards the parking lot.
“tell him Brendon” Sue said
Jon looked at Brendon and waited for an answer
“ok…long story short Gabe and Pete arent getting along because of Jade, and to be honest im not sure where Gabe is going with this but it cant be good”
“fuck” Jon said under his breath
they all looked around for Gabe who was already walking towards Jade’s passenger door
“what the hell?” Jade said, who spotted Gabe first
“Gabe?” Pete looked up at Gabe who reached to open the door
“we need to talk” Gabe said looking right at Pete
“I think it can wait, im in the middle of something”
Brendon, Jon and Sue stood by and watched
“that wasn’t a question bro, get out of the car” Gabe said as his voice grew more impatient.
Pete gave Gabe an offensive look as he got out of the car but said nothing he walked closer towards Gabe, who walked farther away from the car as Pete finally said “what is it?” he was as confused as everyone else at the moment
“Pete you need to stop this”
“what are you talking about?”
“you know exactly what im talking about bro”
“fuck Gabe, why are you doing this again? it’s like you’re trying to ruin things between me and…”
“you need to leave her alone”
“what the fuck? its none of your business”
“Jade and I…”
Pete cut him off “you and Jade?”
Jade stepped out of the car “don’t listen to him Pete, he doesn’t know what he’s saying”
Gabe looked towards Jade “fuck Jade! you too! you don’t even know what happened that night”
“what night?!” Pete exclaimed
Posted on 06/30/2008 5:04 PM Comments (2)
June 26, 2008
nostalgia like no other, like I have never felt before
everything looks, smells and feels like the past
I want things to be like they were so badly
back to the good old days
but we’ve all moved on
we couldn’t go back if we tried
too much time
too much space
too many things have gone by
I miss you but you’re not even a part of my life
I want you back but you don’t fit in anymore
things happen for a reason and yet
I still cant remember why you left
help me make sense of things
help me forget
I know I can move on
just please help me forget
Posted on 06/26/2008 7:10 PM Comments (0)
you wont leave me alone and you wont go away
it goes on like this day to day
things were never easy between us
we both know this you and I
you know im still here so far away
what kept us apart has now gone away
but these feelings this that I feel for you is still here
please don’t tell me that all this time i’ve been dreaming awake
let me know that at least some of it is real
things have been complicated but we have dealt
lets do this one more time
and maybe just maybe this time you will be mine
Posted on 06/26/2008 7:08 PM Comments (0)
June 8, 2008
Placer Culpable
y ni si quiera se
como me vas hablar asi
no tengo interes
en lo que tu pensas de mi.
hermano, porfavor!
tu voz me da un dolor,
solo queremos bailar sin opinion
dejanos ya!
te dije, no nos importa mas lo que nos dices.
el tiempo no se para por nadie
y nadie ya nos puede parar
y date cuenta:
que solamente quiero verte bailando
no me importa ser solo un vicio por ti
basta! no hables Mms!
la noche se va, no nos pueden parar
leyendo otra vez lo que la prensa escribe sobre mi..
ta, no puede ser que siempre se tomen tan en serio. seriamente?
Dios, me abburis. y ya me quiero morir.
mira no puedo estar mas aqui con estos cinicos pesados.
mejor solo que mal acompañado
a veces no se puede ganar….
que se jodan si no saben bailar.
“dale que tu puedes!”
solamente quiero verte bailando
no me importa ser solo un vicio por ti
basta! no hables mas!
la noche se va, no nos pueden parar
tal vez un dia pensare que somos piezas de un mundo completo
que lastima que hoy no me importa nada callense
si vamos al diablo, yo armo la fiesta
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*just though i'd type these up for fun, it was pretty interesting actually. and if you havent heard the song the vids on my profile so check it. Fangs Up!*
Posted on 06/08/2008 7:04 PM Comments (5)
June 5, 2008
Wipe That Smile Off Your Fucking Face
[chapter twelve]
“Gabe! dude. Gabe wake up!” Jon shook him.
“aw what the hell, no” Gabe mumbled.
“get up bro”
“let me sleep”
“I don’t wanna catch traffic”
“fiiiine”
“I’ll wait for you in the living room”
Gabe finally got up and went in the shower.
Jon’s phone rang “hello?”
“hey are you going?”
“yeah, I just came to pick up Gabe, I think we’ll be leaving in about 20 minutes”
“Gabe’s going?!?!”
“why are you so shocked?”
“I thought he was mad and Pete and shit”
“naw I guess he’s over it”
“alright then, I’ll see you guys tonight, I wont be getting there that early, me and Sue have plans”
“laters bro”
“I should have gotten to this earlier, gah what the hell am I gonna wear” Jade threw clothes all over her room its not like anyone’s gonna care. “this” she held up a little black dress “no…this.” she held up some jeans. ok ok don’t over do it. the dress is out. she let out a big sigh I cant believe im finally gonna get to see Pete. “finally” ok now to run some errands and then I’ll come back and get ready.
“Sue! come on babe its noon already”
“im coming!” she called from upstairs
“I’ll wait for you in the car”
“ok I’ll be there”
“good thing we left early” Gabe said
“and you didn’t wanna get up” Jon mocked him
“oh I know”
Jon wasn’t sure whether to bring this up or not, but he decided to ask anyways “I never got around to asking you but, why were you mad at Pete?”
“mad? no I was just…” he tried to find the right words so he wouldn’t give away the real reason that he couldn’t even bring himself to admit “I was upset cuz he kinda left without saying anything, same thing with James”
“oh I thought it was something serious”
Gabe shook his head “its nothing”
“Brendon, what if this happens to you?”
“what do you mean?”
“what if your band starts touring? are you gonna leave me?”
“honestly Sue, I doubt that’s gonna happen anytime soon, but when it does I want you right next to me”
she smiled because she really believed him and knew that this was real.
“Pete!”
Pete turned around to see Gabe and Jon walking towards him “hey! long time no see”
“wats going on man?” Gabe finally asked
“were just setting up, we’re the opening band so we have to set up now”
“so you guys need any help?” Jon asked
“uh yeah actually we do, you guys know the drill”
“ok so this” Jade said, just then her doorbell rang “who could that be?” she went to go get it, peeked out the window and saw a familiar car drive off. the doorbell rang again, this time she opened it.
“Jade!” Sue threw her arms around her.
“Sue! omg what are you doing here?” you could hear the joy in her voice, she didn’t even have to smile but it was hard not to.
“just thought I’d surprise you” Sue walked in dragging a duffle bag behind her.
Jade and Sue walked into the dining room “do you miss it here?” Jade asked.
“actually, I do but im getting used to living with Brendon”
Jade smiled almost forgetting the conflict that was right in front of her “speaking of, where is Brendon?”
“oh, omg Jade we just had dinner at this really nice place downtown anywho yeah I was gonna drive down here alone but then Pete called and--”
“Pete? for what?”
Sue sensed the panic in her voice “calm down, to invite him, well us really to…” she let her voice trail as she put the pieces together, her eyes grew wide “Jade! did Pete call you?”
Jade had the same look on her face, she opened her mouth to speak but the words wouldn’t come out.
Sue started to lose her patience “did he?”
Jade’s face started to show signs of guilt.
“why didn’t you tell me?”
Jade finally spoke “im not sure, I thought you might not want me to see him after what he did to me”
“oh Jade” Sue let out a sigh remembering what Brendon had told her “its your call, if you want to see him then do it”
Jade smiled “so youre gonna help me get ready?”
Sue laughed “unbelievable…so im guessing we’re going to the venue right?”
“yeah, its over on 5th”
“oh Brendon didn’t even tell me now that I think about it”
“well it doesn’t matter cuz we’re gonna be there”
Gabe carried an amp onto the stage to where Pete was standing “wheres James?” Gabe asked.
“aw James, man I feel bad for him, hes in the tour van setting up dates and doing all this paperwork shit”
“that sucks” Gabe said putting the amp down.
“uh I don’t know, he seems to be enjoying it, I know I wouldn’t”
Gabe laughed “yeah me neither, but im glad you guys are having a good time out here”
“so far” Pete finished his sentence.
Just then Jon and Brendon walked onto the stage with more equipment “look who decided to join us” Jon said.
“hey Brendon, didn’t think they’d let you come”
Brendon rolled his eyes as him and the other guys laughed.
Pete continued “so how are things with your new girl?”
“things are going good”
“dude I cant believe she let you out of her sight” he continued to joke
Brendon went along with it and laughed
“where is she?” Jon asked.
Brendon hesitated only because of Gabe but then decided it was best to just say it “I dropped her off at Jade’s a while ago”
“aw sweet, I invited Jade so I guess they’ll be here later on” Pete announced
Gabe walked off the stage and pushed his way out of the building
“yeah I guess so” Brendon finalized as the others watched Gabe walk off the stage. after exchanging various confused looks and critique Brendon decided to go find him.
“should we get there early?” Jade asked.
“Jade its already 6:40”
“oh shit Pete’s band plays at 7!”
Sue solemnly nodded “so lets go”
they got into Jade’s car and drove off.
Brendon found Gabe leaning on the side of Jon’s car
“could you not be so obvious dude?”
Gabe shook his head “I don’t know whats wrong with me, I couldn’t help it”
“you need to let it go, if Jade and Pete want to be together then whatever its their choice, I don’t know why you’re so hung up on her, she was never yours”
“fuck, I know, and I feel bad doing this to Pete too”
“exactly”
“but shes gonna be here, what should I do?”
“nothing” Brendon shrugged “just ignore her”
“okay” Gabe agreed and they started walking back inside
Jade and Sue waited in the car for Brendon and Gabe to disappear into the building. Jade rested her forehead on the steering wheel “I cant do this Sue, maybe I should just go home”
“Jade no, come on, it’ll fine”
“I should’ve known Gabe was going to be here, why I come?”
“Jade im sorry, I kinda knew but I didn’t think it’d matter, its shouldnt matter”
“are you kidding me? Gabe was there! he saw Pete walk off!”
“that’s not his problem Jade!”
“but--”
Sue cut her off “Jade! forget about Gabe. do you want to see Pete yes or no?”
Jade took a deep breath before she replied “yes, I do”
“okay then stop with the nonsense and lets go”
Posted on 06/05/2008 6:36 PM Comments (1)
May 20, 2008
Wipe That Smile Off Your Fucking Face
[chapter eleven]
“call me when you get there okay?”
“I will, bye Jade”
“bye Jaz”
Jade walked back to the parking lot I cant believe she’s gone she sighed, her phone rang “hello?” and all too familiar voice came through the line
“Jade! omg how are you? is Jaz still there?”
“oh Sue, its good to hear from you, im doing good and I just dropped of Jaz at the airport, im still here actually”
“oh well that’s good, I’ll call Jaz later”
“yeah she should be in new york at around 7 tonight”
“oh great” Sue thought about telling her what Gabe had asked her, but knew it was best not to bring it up at the time.
“so how are things with Brendon?”
Sue giggled “oh Jade he’s so amazing, its great, I just wish you were here”
“I don’t think I can go back there”
“not even to visit me?”
“only to visit you”
“I miss you Jade”
“I miss you too Sue, but hopefully we’ll see each other soon”
“yeah I need to go get my stuff”
“yeah I need to head home, so I’ll call you later ok?”
“ok. bye Jade”
“Brendon, dude seriously it’s been two whole days and I havent been able to stop thinking about her”
“who are you talking about?”
“Jade!”
“oh her…dude she treats you like crap”
“no she doesn’t”
“wasn’t she the one who called you a wannabe? and then spilled drinks on you? and didn’t apologize? James even said you called her a bitch, what is there to think about?
“oh shit, I almost forgot that happened” he thought back to when he first met her.
“and besides dude she was with Pete. remember?”
“yeah I pretty much walked in on them twice” Gabe shook his head “I don’t know what im thinking”
“let it go dude”
Sue walked in “hey Brendon I just talked…” she let her voice trail and then stopped when she saw Gabe sitting next to Brendon.
Gabe knew what she was about to say and saw her reaction “yeah, im gonna go now dude, it was nice seeing you again Sue”
Sue looked at Gabe with a look that said “you’re still here?” without actually saying it.
Gabe shook his head “whatever, laters Brendon”
“bye” Brendon said obviously embarrassed.
Gabe walked out.
“what the hell Sue?”
“what?!”
“why do you have to be like that with him?”
“what do you care?” she had never seen him act like this.
“Gabe’s my friend!!!”
“don’t yell at me!!!” Sue shouted back.
“you’re yelling too!”
“ugh. whatever” Sue started to walk away.
“Sue, come on!” he called after her
she ran up stairs to her room and slammed the door. she laid on her bed and thought about what Jaz had told her “what if Brendon’s not the right guy?” I should call her she thought. she heard a knock at the door.
“who is it?” she asked mockingly
“Sue its me, open the door” she heard Brendon’s soft voice say
“go away!”
“you’re acting childish come on, open the door” he said
she couldn’t believe what she was hearing, she wanted to yell back but she knew it would just make things worse okay calm down Sue she told herself “Brendon, please come back when you’re not gonna yell at me or insult me anymore”
he walked away.
“I guess I should start packing up Sue’s things” Jade thought out loud. she went to Sue’s closet and started folding clothes. everything was fine until Pete decided to leave. why would he leave when things were going so perfect? I honestly blame Gabe for everything. he just had to get in the way. ugh. maybe Pete never even liked me all that much. but it still doesn’t change the way I feel. I feel that somethings missing. “fuck!” her phone rang “hello?”
“Jade how are you?”
“who’s this?”
“its me Pete”
“Pete?!”
“yeah”
“what do you want?” she couldn’t shake the anger out of voice if she tried.
“is this a bad time?”
“I don’t know what you want me to say”
“Jade, whats wrong”
“whats wrong is that you left me just like that, how could you?”
“Jade you know how important my band is to me, I thought you’d understand”
she sighed “I just thought that you cared about me, that’s all”
“I do, that’s why I called”
she sighed “yeah…”
“we’re gonna be kicking off our tour at a nearby venue, because I wanted to see you” there was a sadness in his voice
“oh Pete, look im sorry”
“we’ll talk on Friday ok? can you make it?”
“yeah of course”
“I’ll give you the address but I think you know where it is”
“uh yeah probably”
“so I’ll see you then”
“ok then”
“take care”
“bye”
“Sue?” he was surprised that the door was no longer locked, he walked in to find Sue sleeping on their bed, he sat next to her. he leaned in close and whispered in her ear “im sorry babe” Sue woke up to see Brendon holding out a dozen roses.
her mouth dropped open “oh Brendon they’re beautiful” she hugged him
“Sue, we have to talk”
she rubbed her eyes “I know, im sorry, its just Gabe makes me so mad”
“I know but…”
“I shouldn’t have been rude I know”
“yeah” he gave a modest nod. “and Sue seriously”
she switched her attention from the roses she held to him “yeah?”
“I know Jade’s your best friend, but I think she’s old enough to handle this stuff on her own. don’t you think?”
“yeah, I think you’re right. besides I don’t think there isn’t anything that anyone could do right now”
“I think we’re just making things worse, that’s why I’ve kinda been ignoring Gabe”
“she just needs time to get over Pete, that’s all”
“so im dropping you off at Jade’s on Friday while I go to Pete’s gig and I’ll pick you up the next morning”
“yup, I cant wait to see Jade”
“are you sure you’re okay with this?”
“yeah its fine, oh Jade’s gonna be so surprised”
“Gabe?”
“hey Jon whats going on dude?”
“James called me and said you seemed kinda pissed, he was gonna call you but thought that you might still be mad”
“naw, I was that day but im over it”
“alright then, so get ready”
“for what?”
“Pete’s band is gonna be kicking off the tour on Friday”
“aw sweet, where’s it gonna be at?”
“uh some venue…I don’t know, Pete just gave me an address, it about 3 hours from here”
“oh alright then, pick me up? I still don’t have my car”
“yeah fer sure, I’ll pick you up”
“alright see you then”
Posted on 05/20/2008 6:52 PM Comments (2)
May 17, 2008
Ashlee Simpson and Fall Out Boy bassist Pete Wentz got married Saturday night (May 17) in an intimate ceremony, their spokesperson confirmed to People magazine.
"We're delighted to confirm that Pete Wentz and Ashlee Simpson were married this evening in front of family and close friends," the spokesperson told the mag on Saturday, when the couple reportedly exchanged vows in front of 150 guests at her parents' Los Angeles-area home. People's report also apparently confirmed Ashlee's long-rumored pregnancy, stating Simpson is "pregnant with the couple's first child."
Although Wentz told MTV News via e-mail, "Blah, I got nothing," when asked if he was getting married this weekend, reports about a rehearsal dinner and pre-wedding parties started pouring in last week.
Wentz might have been addressing his now-wife in a Wednesday post on his Web site, FriendsOrEnemies.com. "In weird ways i am so different — not in any that can be told from a wrinkle or smile line," Wentz wrote. "A little worse for wear. But you have made me a better person and given me the adventure of my life."
Wentz and Simpson first started dating in late 2006, though both initially denied that they were doing so. It wasn't until mid-2007 that they acknowledged the relationship, when Wentz gushed to In Touch magazine that "I have never met somebody who makes me feel the way she makes me feel."
Rumors began to circulate early this year that the couple had gotten engaged, when Simpson was photographed sporting a large ring (she later revealed that it was simply a promise ring). Then in April, they surprised pretty much everyone by announcing — via a post on FriendsOrEnemies.com — that they were, in fact, engaged.
"We know there has been a lot of speculation recently about Pete and I," Simpson and Wentz wrote in the joint statement. "Yes, we are thrilled to share that we are happily engaged.
"Of course, within a week of that announcement, several celebrity gossip sites began reporting that the reason the couple got engaged so suddenly was because Simpson was pregnant, though in an e-mail to MTV News, Wentz denied those reports, calling the whole thing "a witch hunt."
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credit: mtv news, story by: Katie Byrne, with additional reporting by James Montgomery
Posted on 05/17/2008 10:40 PM Comments (3)
May 16, 2008
basically all evening and praying for a reunion, i guess God must've heard me and i found this "reunion" our lovely buzznet
http://www.buzznet.com/web/music/videos/label/music-weekly-video/47322501/?t=music|daily-video
i love it! to see Gabe pick up that bass again -swoons- what i didnt like was that it with with All Time Low. dont shoot me, let me explain: they're just a band that i am not familar with its not that i dont like them. i am a bit close minded when it comes to music tbh. after getting hooked on Fall Out Boy, Midtown and Panic At The Disco, all my influences came from them meaning of course DecayDance. anywho back on track this just made my week! [possibly my life!]
Midtown Saves♥
Posted on 05/16/2008 7:38 PM Comments (1)
May 4, 2008
five songs that when i first heard i fell in love with. they are in no particular order jsyk.
"dropped" -Phantom Planet
"hysteria" -Muse
"disco" -Metro Station
"bada bing! wit a pipe!" -Four Year Strong
"hey baby, dont you know that we're all whores" -Midtown
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i got idea from chocolatecherrychloe. thnx bby :]
your turn!
Posted on 05/04/2008 8:36 PM Comments (0)
May 2, 2008
Wipe That Smile Off Your Fucking Face
[chapter ten]
“I cannot believe Jade spent the night at Pete’s!” Sue helped Jaz pack.
“don’t tell me she’s staying here too” Jaz replied sarcastically. “ugh. and she turned off her phone too”
“she must have been busy last night”
they both burst into laughter.
“well she has to get here eventually, we’re leaving today” Jaz said.
“she’ll be here, don’t worry”
Jade opened her eyes to an unfamiliar ceiling, where the hell am I? holy shit my head is killing me. she blinked a few times, finding it hard to move she slightly turned her head to the right. there was someone laying next to her, omg that’s Gabe. his back was to her, oh Jade what have you done? ok just get out…fast! she got up from the bed grabbed her shoes and cell and headed for the door, she threw her stuff on the passengers and drove off.
“Jade? is that you?” Gabe got up and looked around to find an empty apartment, he walked back to his room, looked out the window to find that her car was no longer there. “she’s gone”
Jade walked upstairs into the room they had been staying at, she opened to door to find both Jaz and Sue staring at her.
“omg Jade you look terrible” Sue said.
she shook her head as she walked towards them “you have no idea” she finally sat down in between them “I wish I only looked terrible”
“whats wrong?” Jaz finally asked
“I feel ten times worse than how I look, honestly…” she took a deep breath “last night was awful” she continued to tell them about last nights events, or what she managed to recall. “I can never look at Gabe ever again, im just so embarrassed”
"i cant believe Pete just left like that" Jaz said
Jade shook her head "neither can i"
“are you sure something happened with Gabe though?” Sue asked.
“what difference does it make? I woke up in his bed with a hangover, even if nothing happened im sure I acted like an idiot, im surprised he didn’t kick me out” she fell back onto the bed they were sitting on.
Jaz looked at Sue somewhat confused, Sue nodded and Jaz spoke “Jade. Sue. I have something to tell you guys”
Jade sat up and they both looked at her.
“a couple of months ago I applied at an art school and…I got in”
“omg Jaz that’s great!” Sue cheered.
“why didn’t you tell us earlier?” Jade asked.
“I wasn’t sure if I’d get in and I dont know how you guys would take it since…”
“since what?” Jade and Sue asked simultaneously.
“since it’s kinda far” she hesitated “it’s in New York”
Jade’s eyes grew wide “that is far”
“uh yeah” Sue added.
“but it doesn’t matter Jaz, if you wanna go then just do it” Jade said with a smile.
Jaz nodded “yeah I think I’ve made up my mind, im leaving on Tuesday”
“that’s in two days” Sue pointed out.
“I know, but I just need to pack and im off”
Jade hugged her “we’re gonna miss you Jaz”
“so I guess this is it?” Jon asked
“yup, this is it” Jade said “but we’re leaving you something”
“really?” he said enthusiastically
“yeah, Sue!” Jade replied as she laughed
“very funny Jade, im gonna miss that sense of humor of yours”
“yeah I’ll miss you too”
Jade and Jaz got into the car and as they left Jaz said “I feel like we’re forgetting something”
Jade laughed “we’re not forgetting, we’re just leaving some things behind”
“this is weird”
“we’re leaving a lot behind”
“hey James, dude where are you?”
“oh hey Gabe, I don’t know how to say this but”
“dude where are you?!”
“im with Pete”
“what?! why?”
“he called me up and he said he needed my help”
“so when are you guys coming back?”
“honestly, I don’t know, it could be a couple of months”
“great”
“dude come on don’t be pissed”
“I’ll get back at you later”
he ended the call.
“I cant believe you actually decided to stay here with me” Brendon said as he held Sue.
“of course I did, I told you, I want to be with you”
“oh hold on that’s my phone, hello?”
“is Jade around?”
“uh no dude she went home already why?”
“seriously?”
“yeah but Sue’s still here”
“oh ok, can i come over then?”
“sure, we’ll be here” Brendon put his phone in his pocket “I guess Gabe’s coming over”
“so are you gonna take Sue things over there, or is she gonna pick them up?” Jaz asked.
“honestly, I don’t know” Jade replied “but I really wish she’d come get them, I don’t think I can handle another trip to LA" she sighed "and now im gonna have to find a new roommate now that you Sue’s gone and you’re leaving”
“so whats going on?”
Gabe was still panting “where’s Sue?”
“what? what do you need her for?” Brendon replied defensively
“I need to talk to her, where is she?”
Brendon could hear the desperation in his voice “I’ll go get her”
“im pretty much done packing” Jaz said as she closed a suitcase. She looked over at Jade who sat with a blank expression on her face. “Jade you’re still thinking about last night” Jade said nothing “you need to clear your head, it’ll be good for you to have a few days to yourself”
“yeah I think you’re right”
“look I know we havent really talked much but here’s the thing I need to talk to Jade” Gabe said.
“and?” Sue couldn’t help but to be angry at him.
“she’s your best friend! call her.”
“no, I don’t think so” she replied remembering what Jade had told them.
“what? why not? fine! then give me her number”
“Gabe I said no,“ she shook her head “look you’re taking this a step too far”
he sighed “you don’t understand”
“I don’t know what you’re thinking about telling her but…give it some time, you’re acting on an impulse, like you said she’s my best friend, its not the right thing to do, trust me”
“yeah, okay, lets go find Brendon”
Posted on 05/02/2008 7:27 PM Comments (4)
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