Tonight I went to the place where you and me used to be

the warm feeling was gone, tonight the cold air pierced my skin

I used to feel safe with your voice surrounding me in every direction, tonight every sound made a threat

the lights that twinkled so beautifully against the night sky, were dim across a red sky tonight

the butterflies I felt inside when I looked at you were raging moths tonight

the wide eyes that used to look up and admire your every feature, looked down loathing everything in sight tonight

your reflection was missing next to mine tonight

tonight your warm sweet touch was absent

the sound of your heartbeat was replaced by the faint humming of street lights and my empty footsteps tonight

then I never wanted to leave, tonight I felt trapped

minutes used to feel like seconds, tonight those same minutes translated into hours

the comfort I used to feel was gone, never had I felt more uncomfort than tonight

this night, tonight is how it will be from now on

i searched for you tonight but you were nowhere to be found

just me looking for a piece, just a little of what used to be

but within my search i found something tonight, i found that there is no more you and me

and i will never find that place

because along with everything that used to be, that place disappeared tonight

Wipe That Smile Off Your Fucking Face
[chapter eighteen]
“I know I keep saying this Sue, but im so glad you’re here, this thing with Pete and then Gabe and--” she let out a loud but relieved sigh “im just glad its all over with”
“mhm” Sue replied as she took a sip of her green tea
“mhm? that’s all you’re gonna say?”
“well, what about Gabe? I mean Pete is who the hell knows where, but Gabe…im thinking you’re gonna keep running into him”
“I fixed things with Gabe”
“then why did he still want to talk to you a couple nights ago?”
“I don’t know…hes fucking weird”
Sue quickly rolled her eyes at Jade’s stubbornness

“dude I don’t know what to do anymore”
“about Sue?”
“yeah I keep asking her to come home and she says that shes not ready yet, im freaking losing it Jon”
Jon slowly shook his head “hows Gabe holding up?”
“dude I havent talked to him in a couple of days”
“we should drop by, just to see how hes doing”
“fuck! now I know how Gabe feels, fuck this…”

“okay then, you tell me, what the hell do I say to Gabe?”
“agh! jeez Jade, you’re so difficult sometimes” she inhaled and exhaled deeply “you know that you’re attracted to him, and he…well Gabe would pretty much do anything for you, you know that right?”
Jade nodded “and that scares me”
“what?”
“you don’t get it”
“okay so help me understand”
“I think…its just the fact that” she hesitated “ive never had to deal with this; with a guy like Gabe, I don’t think ive---” she was cut off by Sue’s phone
“ugh, hold on its Brendon” she got up from where they sat and took the call in the living room. Jade thought it was pretty hypocritical of her to wonder why she wasn’t with Gabe when she was doing the same with Brendon. she walked to her room and dialed a number that might be able to help
“Jon tell me what to do”
“oh hey Jade, whats going on?”
“I know it isn’t your call but Gabe’s your friend, is he worth it?”
deep inside Jon wanted to say no, but he knew that if Gabe ever found out he would be crushed “well like you said its not my call, but in all honesty Gabe’s a good guy”
“yeah?” for the first time she felt like she was okay with the situation, like she wasn’t crazy for even considering it.
“yeah” he smiled over the phone
“okay, well thanks Jon, you’re always there when I need you, you’re a great friend”
“no problem”

“hey Gabe” Jon and Brendon stood at his door
“oh hey come in guys” he slouched in front of the door as he let them in
“dude you gotta get out” Jon said
“fuck it” he replied with such conviction in his voice that it made Brendon and Jon hesitate to bring up what they came here to talk to Gabe about
“look Gabe I know you probably don’t wanna talk about it, but im gonna go see Sue and we think that you should come so you can see Jade”
Gabe took his hands and slid them over his face and grasped his hair and said “you know what Brendon, id really like to, but fuck, seriously I just cant find it in me anymore, im done trying”
“well if you change your mind, me and Brendon are leaving tomorrow after I get out of work, you know where to find us”
“im done”

“hey don’t you wanna see Brendon?”
“well I was thinking about it, and I decided that im going back home next week”
“really?”
“yeah, I miss Brendon, I want to work this out, and im sure he does too, why are you asking me now?”
“I was hoping you said ‘yes’ so I could use you as an excuse”

Wipe That Smile Off Your Fucking Face
[chapter seventeen]
“Jade?”
“what?”
“whats wrong? why are you so quiet?”
“im sorry Sue, my mind is still buzzing around the whole situation”
Sue stayed quiet long enough to think about what came out of her mouth next “do you like him?”
Jade quickly glanced at her as if she had asked her something completely absurd and she said nothing.
“I mean Gabe”
“I know who you’re talking about” she finally said “I don’t know”
“what about Pete?”
“what about him?” she asked annoyed
“that’s it?”
“yeah that’s it”
“but how can you just let Pete go like that? he was--”
“you know nothing about him!” Jade interrupted
her voice startled Sue “ok…whatever”
“you don’t even know the half of it”
they continued on the road as Jade told Sue more about her mishaps with Pete and her strange run-ins with Gabe, it had been way too long that they had talked with no interruptions except for their own

“I guessed you’d show up soon”
“just let me come in man”
“Jade left? again?”
“shut the fuck up Brendon”
Gabe slumped down on couch near Brendon “you know what man, I know that you don’t give a fuck, but theres something about that girl”
“don’t say that”
“you don’t care Brendon, this isn’t the first time we’ve talked about this, why are you like this?”
Brendon stayed quiet for a while and then finally opened his mouth “alright, you want the truth: I was just trying to stay on Pete‘s good side you know? it has nothing to do with you or Jade”
Gabe sighed loudly “whatever” he got up from the couch and went to where he knew Jon and Brendon kept what he needed more of “I wondered why you always sided with Pete, you bastard”
“can you blame me?” Brendon got up and walked over to check on Gabe
Gabe started taking shots “not really, but I think its too late for me to start kissing ass to that motherfucker”
“yeah well, im actually thinking about my band and not some stupid girl who doesn’t even give a shit”
“fuck you man, you don’t know shit”
“where the fuck did you go?” came a voice from behind
Brendon and Gabe turned around to see Jon walking towards them
“I was at your place for about thirty minutes before I decided to leave myself”
“aw fuck im sorry man” Gabe sloppily replied
“where’s Jade?”
“she fucking left again” he put his head down on the counter

“I never imagined him to be like that, he always seemed so put together around everyone”
“yeah, but he has too much going on right now, and I cant deal-- hang on” Jade picked up her phone “hello?”
“Jade, don’t pick up anymore phone calls”
“who is this?”
“its me Jon”
“whats going on?”
“Gabe is here with me and Brendon, and he’s probably gonna be calling you pretty soon”
“what? why?”
“please Jade just trust me, if Gabe calls don’t pick up”
“wait, then where are you?”
“I came to get more drinks for Gabe and Brendon”
“omg, are they both drinking?”
“uhh…no not really, mostly Gabe”
“aw shit!…alright then thanks Jon”
“no problem, take care”
Jade closed her phone and threw it onto her bed “fuck”
Sue picked up her phone that had bounced off from her bed to the ground “who was that?”
“fuck, fuck, fuck! I don’t want to deal with this now, I cant, im not ready” she fell to her knees and with her head on the floor and started bawling
Sue kneeled next to her “Jade, come on, get up”
Jade kept on sobbing and mumbling so horribly that only Sue could understand what she was saying
Sue put her arm around Jade “you don’t have to do this now, its okay”
Jade finally put her head up and wiped a few tears to make room for the others that followed
“just relax, it’ll be fine, we’ll get through this”

“hey Jon!”
“what?!” Jon called from the doorway
“hurry up with the fucking beer!”
Jon set a brown paper bag in front of Brendon and Gabe
“hey Jon let me have Jade’s house number”
“what for?”
“so I can call her”
“I already gave you her cell number”
“I know but she’s not picking up”
“ok then what makes you think she’ll pick up at her house?”
“shut the fuck up and just it to me already”
“I don’t have it” Jon innocently replied
“bullshit”
Brendon shook his head “screw you guys im gonna fucking crash”
Jon opened up a beer as he sat on the couch “seriously Gabe I don’t have it”
“alright then, fuck it” and he chugged the longneck down

“do you feel better now?”
“yeah, thanks Sue” Jade laid down on her bed “im so glad you’re here”
“me too” Sue slowly walked away as Jade dozed off, she walked into the living room where she looked at her old furniture; the furniture that her, Jade, and Jaz had picked out together. every single piece of it picked out by all three of them, all of it belonged to all three of them. but now, their condo was so empty it made Sue miss living there with Jade and Jaz, but things weren’t the same anymore, and as far as she was concerned they would never be. she walked over to the answering machine which had been blinking since she walked into the living room and she pressed play,
hey Jade, its me…Pete. I just wanted to say that im sorry about what I said to you earlier, I was just really upset, but I didn’t mean any of it, honestly. please call me, we should uhh…talk things over. I told you that I would forget you, but I cant, I havent. things will be different this time, I promise. please Jade I need you, so call me back. I miss you.
“oh please” she pressed the button that would cause Jade the least amount of pain, she knew that what she was doing was right thing, she had to make sure Jade would never hear his voice again, maybe that way she’d forget him a little sooner. she deleted the message; she deleted him out of Jade's life.

Saporta was very much alive and well earlier this month, when MTV News caught up with him at Pete Wentz's Lollapalooza afterparty in Chicago. He told John Norris about Cobra Starship's Warped experience, and discussed the band's upcoming plans.

"The thing is, we're on the Warped Tour now, and we've never played Warped before, and we're not like a typical Warped band, but I guess a lot of kids asked us to be there," he said. "So, we're playing the mosh set on Warped, because we want to make sure the kids get to beat the sh-- out of each other, because we know that's what they like to do.

"When you think Warped, you don't think of a band like us," Saporta continued. "We wear a lot of bright clothes, we shake our butts a lot, we're very sarcastic, we're electronic. Usually, Warped is about the mosh. But the truth is, the scene is changing a lot these days. And what unites all the bands on Warped isn't a specific musical sound, but it's more of an ethic. There are so many different types of bands on Warped, I can't tell you how surprised I am to have made friends with some of these bands that I thought were totally going to think we're pu----s. Like Story of the Year — I just thought they'd hate us. They listen to metal, they have tattoos, and we're best buds on this tour. The common thread of Warped is the ethic."

As soon as the band finishes its final Warped set on August 17 in Carson, California, Saporta told us that the group will be hopping a plane to Australia, where they'll be touring with Panic at the Disco. The singer grumbled about the fact that the band has had no rest, and that the flight Down Under would take an entire day.

"It's OK," he said. "I'll sleep when I'm dead."

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By Chris Harris, with additional reporting by John Norris

Wipe That Smile Off Your Fucking Face
[chapter sixteen]
“hey!” Jon and Gabe both stood at the door “come in” Jon continued.
Jade awkwardly but surely made her way into the semi-familiar living room.
“sit” Gabe said taking a seat at a safe distance from her.
“uh yeah I gotta go do some stuff, I’ll be back later” Jon said as he walked out.
“so whats going on?” Gabe said
“I wanted to start off by saying im sorry” she sat closer to the end of the couch; closer to him.
“it’s okay, I--”
“im not done yet, im sorry for everything, even the drink, im sorry I jumped to conclusions, im sorry that im a hypocrite, im sorry that I’ve been nothing but unfriendly to you, even when you were the only one that was there for me that night” she took a deep breath and look up at Gabe.
“honestly, that’s all I wanted to hear”
“really?” Jade was shocked at Gabe’s reply
“well yes and no” he got closer to her “I know you better than you think”
“you’re talking about that night” she said in a more quiet tone
“Jade, you don’t know what happened that night”
“what does it matter? just the fact that I cant remember anything from that night is bad enough, that’s why I left like that, I was embarrassed”
“well if it makes you feel any better, nothing happened”
“seriously?”
“yes, we, well rather you, talked and then I said you could crash here, you slept in my bed and the only reason why I did too was because you asked me not to leave”
“oh I see, can I ask you something?”
Gabe nodded “sure”
“did I say anything that I should know about?”
“well you talked about Pete and then we talked about why im nice to you, that’s about it”
“why are you so nice to me?”
Gabe laughed, “you asked me the exact same thing last time”
“well I don’t remember what you said” she said giggling herself.
he shrugged “I don’t know”
“is that what you said last time?”
“no, last time I said that I hated seeing you all torn up about what Pete had done to you and I didn’t…” he hesitated “want you to feel how I was feeling”
Jade stared at Gabe and then something inside of her woke up, and she remembered; those exact words triggered a feeling that she shouldn’t be feeling, a feeling that was familiar, a feeling that she was afraid of. she nodded “I see, well…thank-you”
Gabe felt the awkwardness and tried to break it with “Jon should be back soon, you wanna go get something to eat when he gets here?”
just then Pete walked in, Gabe tried to react faster than Jade and got up from the couch, but she beat him to it
“Jade?”
“hi Pete”
“so you finally came to your senses”
“yeah I did” she glanced back at Gabe for assurance
“good, I came to pick up the rest of my stuff” Pete said heading for his old room “let me just put these things in my car and we can get out of here”
Jade followed Pete into his room “what?”
“yeah, im only gonna be here for a while, then we’re going back out on the road, I need time to get settled into my new apartment and then im gone”
“of course” Jade said very sarcastically
“you know how it is”
“no, Pete I don’t but I do know this: you only want someone to come home to”
“how can you say that?”
“its always been like this with you Pete”
“I’ll be here more often if you need me to”
“no! I don’t want anything from you, don’t you understand I don’t want this!”
“then what the fuck are you doing here?” he got right in her face
“I came here to talk to Gabe”
he took a step back “I knew that asshole was in on this”
“don’t talk about him like that”
“aw come on Jade you know he’s been trying to break us apart”
“you don’t need his help for that”
Pete leaned into Jade’s face “come on Jade don’t do this, you know I love you”
Jade slowly shook her head as Pete leaned in closer and closer until his lips touched hers; he kissed her just long enough to realize she wasn’t.
she backed away and looked at him from the floor up and stopped at his face “I cant do this anymore Pete, I just cant”
“but Jade I need you, I cant do this without you”
overtaken by feelings, tears flooded her eyes once again “you‘ve been doing just fine, you don’t need me, you made that choice the day you walked out without saying anything”
“we can work this out, please Jade I cant do this alone”
“that is not my problem! you’re your own problem, so keep doing what you’ve been doing and leave me out of it”
“fine, I see how it is” he walked out with his belongings
still shaken by the situation Jade followed Pete out to the living room, Pete put his things down by the door and looked back Gabe who was still sitting on the couch and then at Jade who stood in the hallway, Pete walked closer towards Gabe; he looked him in the eye and said “you couldn’t let me have it all could you? you son of a--!” he launched at him and grabbed Gabe by the throat “why couldn’t you just leave it alone?!”
Jade ran up to them and tried to separate them “stop! stop! Pete please stop!”
Gabe punched Pete in the face and he fell backwards onto the ground, they both got up and got ready to go at it again when Jade stepped in front of Gabe
“get out of the fucking way!” Pete yelled at her
“no, this is what I should have done before”
“im not gonna warn you again Jade!”
Gabe pointed at Pete “don’t talk to her like that, and get the fuck out of here”
Pete walked towards the door and looking at Jade he said “I cant believe you’re gonna let it go like this but whatever you’ll regret it later” he walked out still shouting “things could’ve been great, but now you’ll never know! you can forget about me Jade cuz I am sure as hell forgetting about you!”

Wipe That Smile Off Your Fucking Face
[chapter fifteen]
“Gabe I lied to you”
“what are you talking about?”
“I have Jade’s number, she actually gave it to me when she was here”
“dude I asked you for it days ago, why now?”
Jon sighed loudly “I didn’t want to be a part of this”
“I know but…”
“and I don’t want Jade to hate me either, we get along”
“you’re not into her are you?”
“no, its not like that”

“hey Sue”
“Jade! I’ve been calling you”
“I know”
“why didn’t you pick up my calls?”
“I needed some time…to myself and to think things over”
“I see”
“and I was mad at you”
“why?”
“because you sided with Pete and…”
“Jade what are you saying?”
“you don’t know them like I do”
“but Brendon said--”
Jade cut her off “thats why I hadn’t called you, you have Brendon’s input, his side of the story, I need your input!”
“that’s how I really see things Jade”
“oh really? because I don’t believe you, im sorry Sue but I don’t”
“oh yeah well call me when done doubting and criticizing your best friend” and she ended the call.

“Jade I really think you should talk to Gabe”
“it sounds crazy but I’ve kinda been thinking the same thing”
“he deserves at least an explanation”
 "yeah, thanks for listening Jon, i'll talk to you later”